Weeehuuu! I am so happy, very happy and beyond happy. Today i went to Imkeda, Cheras to take my driving JPJ test Exam. So, I was sitting and watching people went out to the car smiling and happy and of course i was so afraid and scared of falling again. Then, After a while i was sitting and waiting for my turn to and then after the Chinese girl It was my turned for me to drove. My hands were shacking my legs are also shacking and the JPJ Guy he was talked to me and said that no need to feel afraid and blablabla and i was i like *ehem okay*. I drove the car and then i reached to the Imkeda and i saw my marks are 17 and above and i was like *YEAYYY!* and so I passed the JPJ Test. Thank God, that i passed my test and today was the most happiest day of my life. Im happy, my dads happy, My mums happy, My cats happy. So everybody's happy. Heeeeeeeee ♥♥

Both of them ♥♥

Boring, facebooking & listening to music, Plus i miss my friends. They all alredy gone fly away for further studies. Im sitting here in this lonely house and watching the rains flowing down, Wishing they are safe and success. So, the past few days i started to realize of what i said before to both of my parents of all those harsh words in my blogger. Yeah, i shouldn't said those bad words to them. I wouldn't be alive if they weren't besides me. I wouldn't be healthy and have a house to shelter by rain and sunrise. I love them with all my heart they are everything to me. They feed me, they give me allowance and stuff and everything. They are so special to me. I don't know how to said im sorry and all of my faults. Im not brave to say that im sorry of what i just said those words towards them. Hmmmm, i guess im too selfish to think about my own feelings and needed but then i didnt think about theirs. I love them but then im scared they left me without any expectation/ so suddenly. Im sorry and i love you mak and abah ♥

Rest in peace R.I.P

Somewhere in heaven my late friend Alex is sad i guess. I never told to anyone or anybody or even everybody about a person & a friend called Alex, He's a friend of mine in my hometown, Singapore. He's of course Chinese and im of course Malay. Back when we were so close and and we're like best bud's ever. Every time i go back to my hometown, Singapore. We're always go hang out together. And Last year Chinese new year i celebrated with his family. Me and his family were like my family too. They are so friendly and kind to me. Every time if i had a problem or needed help. His always be the first and the last to know about and help me. He was my hero of my life. We weren't dating, we were best bud's, we were brother's and sister's. Ever since he died, I was so speechless and all of the memories that we shared will never disappear. Every night, i wished that i could meet him in my dreams one day/someday/sooner or later. Every time i go back to Singapore, i miss the place we we used to hang out, I miss the late night baseketball court that we bet & dare to throw the balls at the night guard shift. I miss the time you came to my Grandmother's house played with my grandmothers dog's, Bobo *He missed you too, Alex. There are great memories and moments that i wont forget. He was my hero, my brother and he was my best buddies. He helped me a lot and he never asked for return. To me, he was the most MACHO MAN & the COOLEST GUY ever. He teach me a lot about life, About love, About true friends, About dogs, you name it. He was a brilliant and intelligent guy/firends that i ever met.

"Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there i do not sleep,
I am a thousands that blow,
I am the diamonds glints on snow,
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain,
When you awaken in the morning hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush,
Of quiet birds in circled flight,
I am the soft stars that shine at night,
Do not stand at my grave and cry
I am not there, I did not die"
One day before he died, he read those words to me. I don't know where he got it from and where but i guess this are nice and beautiful words, I miss you leng chai, <33

Can i playback Life?

Last friday was the most Lala bang and the best day i ever had. Me my friend, Tiena and my sista, Maryam went to Green Box; JJ Cheras Selatan. We're dancing, We're singing*like hell and we're laughig*terbaik duh!. We had a lot of fun together and happy together. Wish i could stop the time and replay the moments that we shared ;)













Those are the picture that i love the most :)

Religious "do not quot the words if you dont fully understand"

For the past few days and weeks ago, I've been reading religious book 'The Holy Bible' books. Well, i don't know why i read it but i think i kinda like it though. Its very interesting and it makes me want to read more and more and more. Well, i guess its not wrong for me to read it, Right?. I mean its not wrong for me or other people to read instead of our own racist books. Im interested about the bible, whats in the contents of the book. There's has a number and it always stands two numbers instead of one and in every numbers has a different/own meanings. To me instead of Recite Al-Quran why not we read about other racist instead of ours, To know, To understand, the meaning, the text, the numbers all of it its interesting. Its hard for me to undersatnd, people in this generation is unlike people back when in 60's 70's and 80's, Malay, Chinese and Indians are together like not bother about different racist and different culture, they just go hang out together. But now days, people in living 2010 generations are not like the Oldies people. Now days, If Malay - Malay, Chinese - Chinese, Indians - Indians. Why cant we live together?, Why cant we go hang out together?, Why cant we live peacefully, Harmony and in one group has a different racist?, Im not trying to brag myself like im the peace person, im the one nations person, Its not like that. What im trying to explain is that why cant we live in one big group that has a different racist and culture's? Isn't that awesome? To have a friend like that and knowing their culture. Yeah, just like i said "I don't see what you see, You don't see what i see."




The Holy Bible.


AL-Qur'an.




One Malaysia

Ever heard of " Dont jump to soon"

Have you ever had a crush on someone that you like and you think he's the one who can change everything in your life like "he's the hero of your life" and you wanna make love with him like "in serious relationship"? Yeah, I've been there. Well, at first i was like "this is it, He's the one" But then when i found out that he has a girlfriend while he dated with me and the best part is he cheated on me and lied to me. I was so broken and its really speechless to say how sad i am, how broken i am. He broke my heart and he only said to me "im sorry i cant make you happy i cant be the right guy for you and blablabla" And i was like he still have a shot to try to be the one. Its seems like im not the lucky girl to find Mr SO RIGHT GUY. He treated me so kind and so generous but then he's just one of them, The guy who like to make girls life misserable it is "the player a.k.a sweet talker shit mother fucker". I can't believe i fall for him too soon, I cant believe he treated me like one. Well, I can forget that mother fucker but i cant forget and forgive him of what he did to me *dont get me wrong, me and him, we never ever eveeerrr make out or what so ever they called it this days*. This kind of guy i really really wanted to "ERADICATION". They just dont get it aren't they? Me and all the girls out there we just wanna live and be free but not like this. Why cant we live in peacefully like no enemy no fighting no lies and stuff, Huh? I am speaking be half of all girls in the entire universe/whole world to speak out loud to guys out there in the whole world "STOP CHEATING" with us we're just a girl who want to live freely and peacefully, no world war 3" Ohhh my, I wish im a guy and i can speak like the real MACHO MAN thingy.

*If i were a GUY, I wont treated girls like this kind of thing. If i were a GUY i wont dated to someone that im not into it. If i were a GUY i would be like MACHO MAN like Elvis Persly He's the legend of PRO EVOL/LOVE.*