Him . . .

You say your love on me,
Say you miss on me,
You say sweet words to me,
But where such a loss of words?
Where do you put me on your self?

There is no doubt that I love your self,
And do not deny that I longed for your personal,
I am here waiting for your presence,
I do not know how to arrange the exact words to me stating how sad I am,
Not why I do not want you to know I have this sad feeling.

My self here in the state you want to be alarmed Do not you think I am here,
My self I want to state how much you love yourself wholeheartedly,
I do not want to be the highest, but I just want to make the best so that you happy with me,
I loved your self,
what is wrong for me to say this?
the one for me along with you?

I need you in my well,
I need you with me during the course of our love together,
I want to be your own until the end of my life,
I want to be owned by you only for you alone.
I want to be just you alone.

Will I realized the mistake I am against thee;
will I know the offensive words that I say to you,
all our sources such as I,
I do not understand your,
I am not listening to your self,
Maybe there disgrace me.

Bridge of love we do not end here only
Still much for us to explore,
Still much to our experience,
is still much for us to learn,
I do not want to miss you so alone,
I do not want to lose you so just,
because I am here is you love yourself,
What are you aware of the presence of my love to you?
What I am full of you know my love to you?

"I still raw to get to know thee;
Still a lot for me to understand your personal,
I do not know too much about your self in,
They're traveling to the area you are guiding me
I am slowly learning to be your self.
Original you know I was very happy to be your personal presence in my life,
me, I really do not think like this,
I want to love you as your mother loves you,
I would like to keep you as you protect your father.

Very heavy for me to escape you,
You have half of my heart of hearts,
you have half of my self,
Too heavy to bear I give you,
Because I do not want our love journey ended here ..

My life, Myself but wheres everybody?

"I stand in this world
with no one to guide me, teach me
What I am alone?
What I dislike in others?.

I live like a rock
just sit in a corner,
waiting for the soccer and handball,
collected when needed or to decorate in a place
I reveal what is in this?
I live in what I treat this?.

I am alone in the world I live even though no one bother me, I do not own or have owned one. Because I am not forget by anyone. I do not need or in need of any sympathy for the reader but simply idea and understand what is written by the author.

I am me,
Comes in the name of the set,
I do not have any or any adequate,
I have never been happier,
just outside my laugh, I smile, is just a ploy for me not to cry in front of the feeling of friends I have,
I do not need so that they know the comfort of a friend only.

In the eyes of my parents,
I like the dickens pests,
Because there is no perfect what I do,
what I say all is not well used,
In life no one loves me and accept me as me.
I am just alone at home and even her in the world I live. No one can make sense of serenity and comfort.
My life is kind of lifeless,
Tomorrow, nothing changed.

All this will continue until any.
the continuous growing problem this is my life.
No one can improve my life or there is no solution that can make my life with peace of mind. I live there is not necessarily the end all problems have solutions and the problem will not necessarily continue. Life is full of confusion but that is life right."

My life is full of complicated. No one understands me, Or at least hear me what im trying to say. Its been 18years i been through all this shit. No one can hear me, nobody can see what i see and i cant see what they see. See, I live in a very different world.

Lonely Day

Im alone in the house and im doing nothing . I keep on watching Disturbia again and again and again and it sucks . I know every script of "Disturbia". Gossshh!, Why my life is like this i mean like soooo miserable and very lonely . I woke up in the early morning doing nothing and watching tv . I played piano and playing the same old song and i freaking bored . Maybe i should try playing guitar and bang bang the system of a down song "Lonely Day", Hmmm . I think to me its like friends is like your ghost its like they never lived . Its more like they never exist in your life like never ever . Well most recently i lived with/without them . When i was 17 when my dad or mum left the car in the house i used to take the car without permission . But now i just get bored with doing that . Thats just sooo immature type .

SYSTEM OF A DOWN - LONELY DAY

Such a lonely day
And it's mine
The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day
Should be banned
It's a day that I can't stand

The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day
Shouldn't exist
It's a day that I'll never miss
Such a lonely day
And it's mine
The most loneliest day of my life

And if you go, I wanna go with you
And if you die, I wanna die with you

Take your hand and walk away

The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Life

Such a lonely day
And it's mine
It's a day that I'm glad I survived

Beautifully Broken ..

Last few days ago, Im texting with this guy and thi guy said that he want me to be his girlfriend but he was scared for me to be his girlfriend because of the girls who may or may not be beautiful . But i risk myself to accept him to be he's . Well after a 3 to 4 days it went well and okay and then we had a fought because he didnt even text or gimme a call . Yeah i know its just a small thing well to tell you the truth im a bit lonely and i need someone to talk to . Yeah i know you've been busy with your scath and stuff and girls *uuurrrghh sucks! . I dont know if he still aware that im his girlfriend or just his scandal . Yeah i cried yesterday because of this guy, Stupid huh ? Yeahh i know . I think i know what it feels like to be soooo lonely and its like you live alone nobody theres for you . I think i feel what my ex's feels lik when he needed me but im not thehe for him . It really hurts me deep inside my heart . Am i "perasan" or what ? Damn it . Love does makes one happy but to me love hurts me . It keep on going again and again i dont know how i want to make this love thinggy happily ever after . *urghhh, SUCKS!.


You and you go, Later you looking for me . Or is it me looking for you ? Why ? You miss me ? . Yeah, I dont understand so make me understand whats going on . To be honest i dont believe what you say to me so make me believe it . You need the truth here is it . There you have it, a delighted truth with some honesty in/on it . Thats what you want and thats what you get, Happy? . Yeah yeah, Karma huh ? Thats what its all about . I dont believe in karma but the situation make me wanna believe it because you make the situation to make me belive it . There is never too late to said sorry but at the same time i dont need you're sorry .

Painfully broken

Its been a quite long i didnt post anything . A month ago and until now i've been through hard times . Its really sad that im unlike the others have a great time with their family, laughing and joy . Sometimes i feel like i live in my own life, like no one even cared about me . Yeah i really do dont understand what they really wanted from me . They just keep on ruinning my life and make it harder and misserable . I wonder why they didnt ruinning my brother . Yeah they just love my brother than me like hes the genius or whatever they called it, It really hurts so bad and im so fucking jelous about that . My life it isnt like what you see or what it looks like, Its just a "Propa" . To me friends comes first wether i have a good friend, best friend or whatever friend that i have, they come first . But thats the problem, I have a friend like no friends, and is difficult when looking for clever, happy if it just went like that . Too bad i have a friend like that . They just want to shared my life easily meteriallistic . Life is so cruel and unfair like very very unfair to me . Im all alone facing this lame problem, I cant barely go further i just need someone that i can count on i mean more like boyfriend *daaaa*, Like i have one . *Sigh* i just wish that i died someday in peacefully,

Silence makes me calm, Pain makes me scream, Darkness makes me scared :(

Bon-Voyage my dearest friend , :(

There she is, her name is Nurul Fatinah Mustafa known as "Tiena" . We've been friends since we're in primary school : standard 1 . We have soooo much fun together and we've been through ups and downs together . There are time she annoyed me and there are times she make me happy . Shes like a sister to me, and twins though . I thank to god, that i have a chubby fatty annoying friend like her . I do apprecaite of what i have and found . I do love you, gemok :) . Well the best part is, I didnt get a chance to meet her for one fucking last long time and i didn't get a chance to followed her to go to K L I A . DAMN IT! grrrr ;( . Well, my friend did said to me; "its not like she never come back". Wanna know the ugly fugly truth ? Haha, i wished that her flight are in seriously DELAYED and her bag ended up in IRAQ HAHA :D, kinda mean huh ? HAHAHA, :D xoxo <33

love love love <33

Have you ever felt in love with someone taht you known for a long time and then you just met him for 2 days ago and have a big crush on him ?, but you didnt know tat he already has a girlfriend but at the same time he treat you as your girlfriend . Have you ever felt like the same thing i did ? . Yeah, im telling you guys it hurts me so badly . When i found out taht he already has a girlF i was so so jelous about it and i cried, and very devastated . I was bummed i dont know what to do and what to say but one thing i know is just act like nothing happend . And luckily he didn't know i had a crush on him . I hope he didnty know about this . Well, acttually nobody knows about it . But theres only one person who know about this its my friend . But she dosent know well enough to know how i feel . She does know that i like that guy thats all . gooshhh, how could i be so stupid to be in love like this . Its true what people said, love does hurt and it hurts so badly like sooo cruely, :(